Rene's Dream Journal

THE ANTIQUE HALLWAY

2012-01-23T17:19:00.001-05:00

DREAM

CONTENT: BUILDING, PAST LIFE, ERA: 19c, S___ DREAMS

SUMMARY: I live in old building and end up in danger of falling.

DREAM LOCATION & SETTING

Building location: Possibly America or England.

People: American or British.

Era: Apparel and hallway appears to be Mid 19th to Early 20th Century (circa 1850s to 1920).

COMMENTS

Asleep in the chair at the computer. No earplugs in.

Sunday, January 22, 2012
8:56 PM
RF 9.675

ACCOUNT

SEGMENT 1

OBSERVING. There is at least one white male in black or dark clothing that is removing parts of an antique hallway that is to be renovated (some type of inner walls), exposing the inner walls closest to the exterior walls.

SEGMENT 2

PARTICIPATING. I'm in an unknown room (not seen because it is behind me), and I open the door that looks out into a rectangular hall with a central oval-shaped balcony that runs most of the hall's length. On the left of the hall are clear unadorned windows. I look around the hall then step into it.

To my right a door opens and a woman steps into her doorway, stepping partway into the hall (don't remember her race). [The observing self recognizes her as my waking life neighbor, S___.] Her room is brightly lit with a light yellow artificial light. She has a colorful canister (pale bluish gray, with 1 inch diameter black, pink and white dots and ribbon on top) in her (right?) hand. She asks if I'd like the canister (and whatever is in it). (I've forgotten exactly what she said). I think I hesitate but since she seems sincere and regretful as if trying to make up for something, I gracefully accept the gift with a smile then say, "Thank you". She seems nice. I turn away and head back to my room with the canister.

SEGMENT 3

PARTICIPATING. The next thing I'm standing in my doorway, looking out into the hallway again, but now the brown wood floors are completely wet, and I'm baffled as to why. Then I look over at the wall of windows and see that outside them water is pouring down the glass from a heavy rainfall, but the interior side of the windows and the flooring is completely wet. I realize the rain is getting inside--a leakage. With the mystery solved, my attention turns elsewhere. I walk toward the balcony banister.

In the next instant I'm leaning against the banister--my left hand grasping the rail as I look down to the landing then reach across with my right hand to the opposite banister (somehow this is possible). Without warning a large section of the banister on my side gives way, leaving a baluster hanging (to my left) from the top of the remaining section of the banister. I hang on with my right hand, dangling over the downstairs landing where a few people walking are walking toward the exit to the right. One of them is thought to be the renovator on his way out. I also see (what is remembered as) a woman in a light blue nurse-type uniform or dress.

With my free left hand I reach for the spoke and begin to twist the lower two sections in an attempt to tighten them so I can securely grab it and hopefully maneuver my way back onto the floor. I worry that it is not going to hold my weight as it is a fragment of the fallen banister section.

Coming up the left side of the three foot wide staircase (dark gray carpet or other surface) are two white, middle-aged gentlemen (late 40's to late 50's): The first man is wearing a light yellow or white/cream shirt under a black suit, and he has on a black Bowling hat. A few feet behind him the second man is dressed slightly less formally (no full suit) with all black clothing. I'm relieved to see them; they don't seem to notice me, so I call out to them, the first man specifically because he is closest to me. He looks up in surprise (I feel myself to be in my 20's and nice-looking, possibly Caucasian or fair-skinned). I say, "Will you help me?" and he just stares at me in shock, but I can see he is prepared to help. The observing me recognizes that the man will become an important part of my life (in that lifetime) beyond rescuing me.

HALLWAY DESCRIPTION

A wide rectangular hall (the word "Gallery" and "Rotunda" keeps popping into my head) about 15 feet long and at least 3.5 feet wide (running left to right in the dream) with a staircase access at center right of a central, oval-shaped, banister style balcony that runs most of the hall's length. The wood on the walls, window slats, baseboard under the window, and floors of the upper hall are a dark walnut or mahogany--brown but not very dark.

The floors are made up of narrow (about 5 inch wide) slats of wood that run horizontally along the length of the hallway (left to right from my observing vantage point).

The balcony overlooks the main floor part of the staircase and main floor and is made of narrow-spaced, 3 feet high vertical balusters that run the entire balcony width and length. The balusters are made up of three identical small sections screwed together, and the balcony banister is about three and a half feet from the doors.

Doors run the length of the hallway on one side but I'm not sure what is on the opposite (further) side. I don't remember the color of the doors or walls--they aren't of a light color--just that there is a wood baseboard under the windows, and a vague memory that all of the walls are made of the aforementioned wood.

My room is center left of the side closest to the dream screen, and there are other rooms to the right of mine and at least one room to the left.

On the far right is a wall remembered as being another wall of glass, similar to a partition beyond which seems to be an office or something. Maybe it's just a mirrored wall.

On the left, the wall is is made of gorgeous side by side unadorned windows that are about five feet away from my room.

Last but not least, the ceilings were high at about 15 to 20 feet. Not clearly seen.

WINDOW DESCRIPTION

A wall of windows that start lengthwise from a 2.5 to 3 foot wood base to the ceiling and from a narrow band of wood on the left and right with vertical narrow strips of wood separating the windows. throughout the hall was a with medium brown walnut or mahogany wood that has a nice sheen when wet and appears basically smooth. There are 3 or 4 windows side by side and separated by narrow stripes of wood. The panes are clear and void of any window treatments and they curve gently outward at horizontal center from wall base floor to ceiling, giving the exterior a gently curved appearance. These windows should provide a reasonable amount of natural light.

STAIRCASE & LANDING DESCRIPTION

The staircase is one flight in 2 or 3 sections or a single section that changes direction. From my vantage point, the last man was coming up from the right then turned left to the final stretch of ten or so steps. Going downstairs, the stairs led straight down for half a flight then turns rightward (and possibly a third turn further right). The upper staircase exits onto a wide rotunda-styled wide hallway. The staircase is accessed from the main floor landing. The stairs and the main floor surface are dark grey with the landing being almost black and matte with small white speckles. The stairs may be carpeted, if not then of the same surface as the main floor.

NOTE: Just had a flash memory again of there being a second staircase on the opposite side OR the staircase is similar to a spiral staircase. I don't remember there being a second access point, though.

FINAL COMMENTS

This dream had parts which hinted at a past life: The hall and it's antique structure with dark wood, curved windows and a rotunda-styled balcony. I'm not sure what era was hinted at beyond that. It was like taking 21st century people (me and S___) and sticking us into the 19th or early 20th century.

INTERPRETATION

What is most striking is the antique hallway which was so beautiful. The next thing that drew my attention were the windows. Next, the recognition of S___ and last, the wet flooring caused by the rain.

It appears that there is a reference on the relationship between me and S___, my neighbor. However, WHAT the reference is, I'm not certain because I've no idea if the dream is referring to a past life that we may have shared. Or maybe it's an alternate life or may even refer to the future in this lifetime.

The hallway and the apparel of the men in the dream (not sure know what S___ was wearing, but I'm getting a flash memory of a long gown or robe) was distinctly from the Mid 19th to Early 20th century. A few of the men wore black suits with black Bowler hats (curved tops with short or flip up brims). This is the 2nd or 3rd dream with a man wearing a suit with such a hat. Hmmmm.

This dream is an example of how how past life material/memories come through to us. In bits and pieces, sometimes mixed in with modern settings and decor. The dream following this one of the old factory buildings and military practice is another example past (or even future) life material seeping into our dreams.

SOMETHING STRADDLES ME--IS IT MY ASTRAL BODY?

2011-12-04T15:28:00.004-05:00

DREAM

CONTENT: SPIRIT, SPIRITUAL ASSISTANCE, ASTRAL PROJECTION

SUMMARY: Spirit lies on me.

DREAM LOCATION & SETTING

Unknown dark room. Central dream character asleep in bed, lying on stomach under sheet cover. Asleep in the chair at the computer.

COMMENTS

No earplugs; headphones on but no sound (cooking show paused). OBSERVING AND/OR PARTICIPATING. Confusing dream action.

Sunday, June 19, 2011
8:36 PM
RF 9.90

ACCOUNT

SEGMENT 1

PARTICIPATING. I'm sitting at a long table in a well lit cafeteria[1], and across from me are two female friends. We have a long conversation (forgotten) where a decision is made.

SEGMENT 2

OBSERVING. I'm watching someone quietly asleep in bed[2} under a top sheet or quilt[3]. I am aware of a presence--a spirit--but I don't see it, yet know it is standing? at the wall right where I am.

NOTE: Because of the confusing nature of the dream, Segment 2 is broken down into current viewpoints which changed and merged a few times. Three things are possibly going on in this segment:

[1] Either I'm the person in the bed AND in my astral body (hovering over the bed or standing between/in wall and bed). OR

[2] The person in bed is unknown, AND I'm in my astral body while hovering or standing near the bed. OR

[3] I'm the person in the bed, AND I'm in the astral body, AND I'm also the presence—a spirit.

PARTICIPATING (AS SPIRIT?). The person is in the center of the bed and seems to have no awareness of the spirit even as it sits at the foot of the bed (on left) and lies on the left edge of the bed, its back to the wall[4]. I feel its "body" movements as if I AM the spirit, and sense it is stocky and about 5' to 5' 5" tall, but I cannot determine a sex. I feel it raising its right leg, and I see a wall of softly glowing bright red light under the leg of the spirit. I feel it straddle the person's left leg. I vaguely sense the spirit's intention which is not to molest but to merely lie on the person's back, to gain some form of closeness with the sleeping person. I don't know why it wants to do that, but it is in an upright straddle position and leans forward, making a sound (forgotten).

PARTICIPATING (AS ME). There is an imperceptible change of viewpoint. One moment I sense the spirit leaning forward and the next I seem to be in the familiar in-between (astral?) state. At some point I briefly see a soft lavender pink light amid darkness THEN I feel a medium heavy pressure on my back as if something is lying on it—more than that it is a sort of tight embrace or clutch. It is NOT pinning me down—it's literally clinging to my back, and I am certain of that as I shrug my back side to side to dislodge the presence, managing to sit up in the process.

PARTICIPATING and OBSERVING. As I sit up and the spirit is no longer on me—it is now clear that I AM the person in the bed. I can feel and see[5] myself scrambling to the edge of the bed[6]. The room is dark but as always there is that mysterious light where I can see close around me (the aura, perhaps?). I turn slightly leftward and shout in frustration into the dark, "I call on the Forces of Good, my Angels, and the Archangels. I ask that all (negative?) presences be removed from my apartment...permanently." (parts may be forgotten at this point)

I awake at 8:36 PM then close my eyes briefly and see a display of rich purple against darkness.

NOTES

[1] My back is to the dream screen

[2] the dream room was not in my waking life apartment—I don't even have a bed...I sleep on the couch in an upright position.

[3] sleeping in a queen or king-sized bed to the far left of a large, darkened room. The left side of the bed is against the wall, the head of the bed Northward, the foot of the bed closest to dream screen.

[4] the spirit lies on its left side, back facing the wall

[5] I am simultaneously participating and observing as if standing or hovering from the wall area behind me. So whatever I do, I also see it happening.

[6] center right with wall behind me. . . I'm wearing white or light color clothing (PJs?).

FINAL COMMENTS

It was very difficult to describe this dream because I seemed to be myself in the physical and the astral but also be the spirit as well. A very odd and rare dream.

INTERPRETATION

THE SPIRIT = self. Possibly the dark side of self trying to unite with the main self. OR could be an actual spirit that I (while in my astral body) whose activities were viewed by my astral self.

RED LIGHT = may be energy of some kind.

RIGHT LEG = the future.

STRADDLING = indecision.

LAYING ON MY BACK = pressures of life; burden--what is carried around. Could be an actual spirit visit.

What I think was happening is that I astral projected and stood or hovered nearby, either watching a spirit and entering its body OR I was the spirit and lay upon my physical body. The spirit could be my dark side trying to merge with me or gain some attention.

THE DANCING WALL REFLECTION

2011-12-01T12:28:00.004-05:00

DREAM

CONTENT
COUNTRY (INDIA), RACE (INDIAN or AFRICAN), DANCING AND SINGING

SUMMARY

I decide on wall decor, dance as man watches, and see a watercolor reflection of myself on the wall.

Friday, August 26, 2011--a
3:54 AM
RF 9.8

DREAM LOCATION & SETTING

Seg 1 & 2: Feels like I'm in an underground building or a basement. There are no remembered windows. The room is no more than nine feet wide but is exceedingly long like a wide corridor. The building feels like it's in the Middle East or India.

PRELIMINARY EVENTS

Prayed to Archangel Michael and asked him to enter my dreams. Told him that I was lonely and wanted to talk to him about my future (I meant this life). I asked him if I could have a sign upon awakening that would help me remember the dream and who he was in it. Earplugs in.

ACCOUNT

Segment 1

PARTICIPATING & OBSERVING. Parts forgotten. I'm in a well lit, nondescript room with white walls in an underground building or basement that is at least twenty feet long like a corridor. This is space I'm in the progress of decorating and it feels like it was recently provided to me to do with as I wish and for that reason I am happy and excited. I also feel that I'm wealthy (either myself or via a husband or other provider).

I am walking along the corridor of what seems to be the center of the "apartment". To my left is a man (not seen or not remembered) who is a contractor (painter). I instruct him to stencil the walls with a brick stenciling. The dreaming me envisions the entire front room and the wall to my right all done in brown brick. I think I ask him about the cost of the full stenciling. His price quote is more than I want to spend or expect it to be, so I am a little undecided and almost change my mind, but I think I decide to have the brown brick stenciling done.

Segment 2

PARTICIPATING & OBSERVING. Parts forgotten. Now I'm in the front room with its white walls. It seems to be the same day, and I'm with a man (not seen yet) who feels to be my husband or boyfriend. I talk to him about dancing then I begin to dance a fast, scintillating rhythm. I move forward to the opposite end of the room then turn and head back to the opposite wall. As I dance I am observing myself as if I am standing a few feet away, watching: I have dark brown skin; am very slender; have straight, long, brown hair tied up (with a white bit of fabric) in a neat, pointy bun on top of my head; am wearing an off-white skirt that stops at or above the knee and which is very frilly with lots of layered ruffles (think Mexican). When I move the ruffles rise and bounce. I don't remember clear enough what the top looks like.

I move my hips quite fast to the beat of what sounds like Indian music (from India) that uses cymbals and a flute (think Bollywood). My ability to move is effortless and sensual, extremely focused and on target with the beat of the music. I swivel my hips and spin around and around. I appear to really love dancing and may have previously been a professional dancer.

Then I am on my final steps and am facing a wall (the man is later revealed to be behind me, sitting with his back against the opposite wall) which reflects my image near the bottom half, but the image is a watercolor and not a mirror image. This image reflection moves as I do, and I get a clear look at myself. I'm smiling broadly and am dark skinned, possibly of Indian or African ethnicity. I look exotic. Surrounding my silhouette are rows of bright colors (like an aura): White, yellow green, lime green, medium ocean blue are the colors I remember. From behind me (to my left) I hear the man say, "People will love you," and it is clear that he's referring to my dancing skill. When I finish the dance, I lay down on the floor and the image duplicates my movement.

Then I rise, facing that wall and watching the image smiling back at me. The man begins to clap, applauding me and the routine. I turn to face him and for the first time, I see his face clearly. Again, he encourages me to dance, saying that people will enjoy watching me. He is white-skinned; has a long, squarish, and full face; dark hair, slightly bald at the top; is wearing a white or light color shirt, and has a broad smile. Then I awake.

FINAL COMMENT

Soon as I awake, a thought comes to mind that he is of Mediterranean descent.

The dream was very realistic and felt a lot like astral projection dreams do. I've had several dreams where I am either dancing or singing. The thing about dancing is that in my youth I wanted to be a singer (among other things). But by the time I turned 15, I discovered a hidden talent for non-professional dancing.

For many years I have imagined having a large, empty room where I could dance a sort of jazz freestyle-ethnic fusion.

POST COMMENT

Thursday, December 1, 2011
11:20 AM

At the time I had written the account, I had forgotten that for a brief period I had tried my hand (in secret) at Jazz-type dancing. It was a lot of fun but not something I wanted to do professionally. It was the peace of being alone and immersing myself in the enjoyment of the vibration of the music and the freedom of constraint.

CROSS-REFERENCE # (Acct. 2): 2011-08-26d-FR and 2011-08-26e-FR
CR SUMMARY: Colored lights seen with eyes closed.
CR RF: 0

INTERPRETATION

No thoughts at this time.

LAST UPDATED: December 1, 2011

BLACK CLOUD ROLLS IN

2011-10-26T08:48:00.008-04:00

DREAM

CONTENT: CLOUDS, UNSEEN PERSON

SUMMARY

I see ominous black cloud in the sky and an unseen presence arrives.

CROSS-REFERENCE: 2011--10-26-WE [Outside Link]
CONTENT: SYNCHRONICITY

SUMMARY: While trying to decide on the best word to use, I hear one of the two choices spoken by someone on a video.

LIFE EVENTS AT TIME OF DREAM
Taking fluid retention medicine. In good spirits.

PRELIMINARY EVENTS

Today, after food shopping, a lady recommended that I find out why the fluid is being retained. So, several hours before the dream, I twice thought to ask Archangel Raphael if He could help me find out why my body is retaining fluid--the source problem.

DREAM SETTING & LOCATION: Unknown bedroom at night.

COMMENTS: Earplugs in. Asleep at computer

Tuesday, October 25, 2011
11:40 PM
RF 9.6

ACCOUNT

Segment 1

PARTICIPATING. Parts forgotten. It's early evening with a wee bit of light still in the sky. To my right I hear someone frantically say that (someone or thing) is coming. This reference is to the sky. I'm not sure where I am because all I see is a view of the sky with large white clouds (not fluffy or bright). To the left is a large lower patch of clouds and one over it with horizontal spaces that show the light blue sky behind. True to the warning, at the upper left a huge, black, fluffy, storm cloud rolls into view, moving fast from upper left to lower left in a diagonal path over the top of the white clouds. This arrival is like an invasion by a negative force.

Segment 2

PARTICIPATING. Parts forgotten. I'm in a bedroom that is dim, and I have already gone to bed (sheets are light blue), am lying on my back, and have the sheets drawn over my head in an attempt to hide from whatever force that has arrived. Then I feel someone get into bed with me on my right. Whoever it is seems to be lying on its back, for it leans leftward--the person or entity is not seen but I feel this movement as I would that of any flesh and blood human. This presence leans over me, saying[1] with a male voice, "There is too much light, it needs to be darker." He reaches up to the left of me and soundlessly does something that makes it dimmer under the sheet or in the room. Then he lays back down, the sheet adjusted over his head, as well. Dream ends.

The understanding I have is that the light would have attracted the negative visitor.

FINAL COMMENT

I wasn't scared and have no idea who or what the presence was. I never saw anything but there is a faint knowledge that the bing did not live with me but arrived that night uninvited as a result of the invasion.

Also, in waking life, I don't have a bed and, in fact, I was sitting to the computer when the dream occurred. However, I have had previous dreams (not lately) of unknown male presences hopping in bed with me. Had I had a bed NOW, I would have wondered if this spirit had done so in reality.

I find it interesting that even though I don't have a bed, I've had several dreams that occur in a non-existent bed often located in what appears to be my former apt.'s bedroom. In retrospect, however, this latest dream could have been my bedroom (if it wasn't filled with books and stuff).

NOTES

[1] May not be the exact words, but the meaning is accurate.

INTERPRETATION

LITERAL INTERPRETATION
This dream may refer to health-related issues.

SYMBOL INTERPRETATIONS

WARNING --- literal. Sounding an alarm. What was the warning? [That something threatening (forgotten) was approaching.]

INVASIVE FORCE / INVASION --- literal. That which threatens to invade. Physically, could be invasive bacterial cells within the body.

SKY --- communication. High ideals.

WHITE CLOUDS --- the spiritual horizon; that which is positive.

DARK CLOUD --- something unknown or negative. Or it reflects darkness itself.

DARK CLOUD ROLLING IN --- something unknown or negative coming on the horizon. Something looming.

TOO MUCH LIGHT --- literal. [ I'm spending too much of my waking time in light, even sleeping with the light on instead of in the dark which would afford my body the opportunity to better regenerate (melanin).]

"NEEDS TO BE DARKER" --- literal. [ I'm being told that I need to sleep in a darker environment to keep out or (prevent or thwart) invasive (health-related) activity.

BED / BEDROOM --- a rest state or state of resting is needed. Intimate life.

UNDER THE COVER --- that which is hidden or hides; protection from or hiding from some issue, thing or event. What are you hiding from or trying to prevent. [awareness of and prevention of ET or spirit contact/interaction]

PALE BLUE --- represents a healing source or force.

PRESENCE --- may be a guardian or health Angel. Also, may be Higher Self or some alternate self.

PRESENCE IN BED WITH ME --- the manner in which the dream message is delivered. A spiritual companion.

FINAL INTERPRETATION

From a physial (or literal) point of view, the dream message and symbology is warning me that my practice or habit of sleeping with the lights on at night is affecting my health by preventing my body from regenerating (recupping energy and resources) so it can maintain healthy function. If I persist with this habit, I will open myself up to invasion by harmful bacteria, weakened immune system and possibly, even, negative spiritual forces. The message is clear: "There is too much light, it needs to be darker."

LAST UPDATED: October 26, 2011

FINAL STEP

2011-10-17T07:41:00.004-04:00

DREAM

CONTENT
PAST POSSIBLE PAST LIFE, TRANSFORMATION, NEIGHBORHOOD

SUMMARY

Indian woman leads me to a destination; climb stairs to reach door.

Saturday, August 6, 2011--b
3:30 PM
RF 9.8

COMMENTS: Earplugs in.

PRELIMINARY EVENTS

Prayed to Archangel Michael (circa 11:49 AM); asked him to visit me in my dreams. Woke at 12:59 PM then back to bed at 1:49.

ACCOUNT (edited)

Segment 1

OBSERVING. It's daytime, and I'm looking for someplace. I come across a group of white-skinned Indian women. The leader of these women is tall with dark hair, wearing a black dress of A-line style with a Peter Pan-like collar. She is responsible for protecting the community when their husbands are at work or away. A woman tells her something, shows her a piece of white paper. Whatever it is makes the leader suspicious, concerned.

A few moments later, I show the leader my notebook and what I'd been writing. I think I ask her where to find some location.

Segment 2

PARTICIPATING and OBSERVING. I can see the women with me in front of them, walking along a wide dirt path with an orange dirt field to our left. The path is quite long, and I've no idea where we're headed, but the women are walking briskly, and seem to be happy, the hems of their white petticoats showing under their dresses (19th century?--same style of the leaders, only some in color like light melon and light ocean blue). They are in modern enough dresses--A-line style and white petticoats. The leader is yards ahead of us and is of a quiet, subdued demeanor. I rush to join the leader to her right.

Segment 3

PARTICIPATING or OBSERVING. Now the women and the leader are behind me. I don't see them or hear them, only see that I'm standing inside a gate entrance and am looking across the front yard of a gray house that's to the far right almost out of view. Straight ahead about eight feet, is a long horizontal fence with a gray central gate that opens out onto the sidewalk of a wealthy neighborhood. Before the gate is a waist high, large gray, metal cylinder (about 2.5 to 3 feet in diameter) with beige or pale gold accents. To the right of this cylinder object is a rectangular fax machine-like object (same color as cylinder) mounted somehow next to the stairs of the house. There is lively green shrubbery in the yard, especially in the center, forcing a path to the left (and right?).

I recognize the yard as one I had visited before. I say, "I dreamed of this before. The last time was yesterday." I also know the neighborhood beyond the gate is one I've visited on prior occasions.

Segment 4

OBSERVING. We've crossed the garden, went out out through the gate and onto the sidewalk. We eventually end up in an okay lit stairwell. I see the women rush up the stairs, but the leader is missing. I see a woman with short cut sandy blond hair and a dress similar to the leader's. She looks up at me then continues up the stairs (at least two flights).

PARTICIPATING. I'm now walking up the stair then crouch down, knowing I can see the outside beyond the back of the stairs. What I see is the corner a mini mall[1] surfaced in dark taupe-like gray metal with horizontal ridges at the top and shaded windows of similar color. At the very top, center left, is the name of the store which is "TIME" in medium yellow capital letters (Times New Roman font). I say, "That's the store I was looking for."

I raise and continue up the stairs.

Almost at the top of the staircase to the left is a brown-skinned woman of Haitian (or Caribbean) descent. She has her head down and I know she is too afraid to step onto the last stair which will put her on the top landing where there is a medium pink and red speckled door that looks (and I know it to be) ancient. To the immediate left of the door is an old-fashioned cylinder object (can't recreate the image)--a sort of curved or spiral appendage. I recognize the door as one I'd seen a few times before; the memory of it instills fear in me because others who have tried to reach it have injured themselves, and/or have not succeeded.

Behind me, the women are shouting to her words of encouragement. I say to her, "You're going to miss your train!" Until then I had no idea where we were, that we were at a "station" of some sort.

The goal is to get her--all of us through the door. The problem is that the final stair is a trick step that moves when you step on it and could potentially plunge a person to their death. I try to coax her, to support her to take that final step. She does try and when she raises her foot and steps on the stair, the top of it swings out toward us on the right side about four inches, and this action fills her with renewed panic. The step is bright yellow with a narrow black, rubber tread at the top front edge (2" height and 1" depth) with horizontal ridging.

I (grab her arm?) and push or kick the stair back into place.

The coaxing having failed somewhat, I grab something to my right for leverage and take that final step to the landing. I find I'm too far to the right and in the wrong position (need to be in the center where the door is) to pull the door open without my being in it's path. So I step to the left and am now right in front of the door. Straight after, I hear the women behind me rush up the remaining steps, passing me and gathering on the landing (I don't actually see them). As they do, I reach back for the woman and take her arm to help her onto the landing. There is a feeling of something gone wrong, a strong disturbance where she was standing. She's disappeared and I surmise she may have fallen in a space to the far left of the staircase banister (the landing seems to be nonexistent on the far left). There is an atmosphere of fearful expectation as I stand and stare at the door. I reach out to open it, then I wake up.

NOTES

[1] a group of stores under the same roof

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INTERPRETATION

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SYMBOLS
Indian wives, leader, black dress, A-Line dresses, long dirt path, orange, dirt field, garden, gates, cylinder, fax machine, gray house, stairwell, stairs, store, transformation of women (Indian into Caribbean), missing leader, yellow, time, final stair / final step, trick stair, fear, pink and red, door, left side, right side, forward, behind, in front.

MAJOR SYMBOLS
Leader, long dirt path, garden, gates, stairwell, stairs, transformation (Indian into Caribbean), final stair / final step, trick stair, fear, door.

I'm going to analyze some, if not all, of the symbols, giving my impression of the possible literal and symbolic meaning of the symbols as they pertain to my life or of those around me.

LITERAL INTERPRETATIONS

Parts of this dream feels to be astral in nature where locations in the dream appear to be familiar to the observing and/or participating self. These include:

[1] the garden area (relates to a previous dream and a previous visit, neither of which were remembered in waking life)

[2] the neighborhood beyond the garden (although not seen, I knew what was beyond the garden which points to some level of foreknowledge or familiarity)

[3] the store named TIME (there was a feeling of familiarity)

[4] the door (dream familiarity and knowledge of an object not remembered in waking life)

Another consideration is that parts of the dream may hold past life associations:

[1] the Indian women (including the leader, could point to lifetimes in India)

[2] Indian women transforming into Caribbean black women (could point to a past life in both India and the Caribbean)

[3] 19th century A-line dress fashion w/Peter Pan collar (could point to a past life in 19th century America, since this is fashion popular around that time AND I've had other dreams where similar fashion has shown up.

There is also the possibility of interaction between my superconscious and conscious self. Such as:

[1] the leader (the Superconscious itself)

[2] the women (both races--aspects of self)

[3] garden (the soul or spirit of self)

[4] the door (entrance into Superconscious--aka Oversoul--)

SYMBOLIC INTERPRETATIONS

LEADER --- the Superconscious (SC). The SC is that part of self that knows all and has awareness of past lives, astral journeys, knowledge of God, etc. [The Superconscious may be the same as the Oversoul, Soul, and Spirit. SC May be the location and door to the Akashic Records that some believe lies within us.] In this dream, the leader may be a personification of the Superconscious which is trying to communicate the core meaning of the dream. (See MAIN MESSAGE.) Could also be a gate-keeper or a Guide leading me along the path to greener pastures and/or to higher knowledge.

INDIAN WOMEN --- may have a past life association. Aspects of self as a support team.

CARIBBEAN WOMEN --- may have a past life association. Aspects of self as a support team.

WIVES --- aspects of self. A marriage of some sort, possibly a personification of aspects or abilities that work together (community). Support team.

BLACK DRESS --- the unknown, death, or change. What one is wearing and seen by others. That which hides parts of self.

A-LINE DRESSES --- the words "a line"? A past life fragment.

LONG DIRT PATH --- The journey of my life at present. To me, a dirt path is that which is void of water and greenery--both vestiges of the spirit--awaiting nourishment in the form of water and attention. This symbol likely denotes my waking perceptions about my life and how pointless and without purpose it seems. Also, a path is usually bordered by something. Take note of what bordered either side of the path:

Thus, to the left was a wide open field that spread out wider as the path continued. What was to the right isn't remembered, which makes the left side the default focus.

ORANGE --- a degree of occult (hidden) knowledge. The deeper the orange the more depth of occult knowledge one possesses or needs to acquire.

ORANGE DIRT FIELD --- Available space. Perhaps occult knowledge (orange) in need of expansion (field). Open lots are space available to build upon and to expand already present structures. Since the field was to the left, this symbol may be a comment on occult (psychic) ability that has yet (left) to be expanded. Also, FIELD could represent my choice of skill, ability, talent, or job position as in "What field are you in?"

WEALTHY NEIGHBORHOOD --- a richer area of my life that I may be entering into. Or an improvement of my financial status.

GATE / ENTRANCE 1 (into garden) --- at the threshold of something previously glimpsed or desired (I saw this garden before). Since I was standing in the opening of the first gate, and was observing, this dream action could represent that I'm at a standstill for the present time but am being shown what lies just ahead.

Take note of what was seen from gate 1:

[1] FRONT YARD / GARDEN with lively shrubbery may denote Greener pastures straight ahead. Perhaps the garden of the soul;

[2] GATE / ENTRANCE 2 (out of garden) --- an entrance into what lies ahead. Because reaching that point requires moving forward, the second gate represents what lies ahead in the near future. Note that this gate leads to a wealthy neighborhood, and thus may denote a way by which to enter a state of financial improvement;

[3] CYLINDER OBJECT not sure what it represents;

[4] FAX MACHINE may denote (spiritual?) communication because it is used for purposes of providing and receiving information (I did have a dream of a phone call that seemed to be from someone that may now be deceased);

[5] GRAY HOUSE is a potential state of health in my future but not yet an absolute (grayed, almost not seen).

STAIRWELL --- a transition

STAIRS --- since I was going up, a transition to a higher state of consciousness or other fixture of life.

CROUCHING --- peeking into the subconscious (denoted by the lower position). Note what was seen:

[1] STORE --- where one purchases what is needed or desired.

[2] STORE NAME (TIME) --- literal. A period of time that the transition dictates.

[3] YELLOW --- a derivative of fear since yellow once represented cowardice and fear. Currently in my life, I feel that I have wasted time in the prime of my youth, and that my life has been a waste. I fear that I'll be poor for the remaining years of my life despite my efforts which have so far been failures.

[4] STORE NAME FONT: TIMES NEW ROMAN note the word "Time" repeats. This is part of the dream message: Time and fear.

TRANSFORMATION OF WOMEN (INDIAN INTO CARIBBEAN) --- change, transformation, and transition in motion (since the women changed race while heading upstairs). Have not determined the interpretation of the ethnicities.

MISSING LEADER --- this likely denotes that whatever the leader represented, her job was completed because she had led me to a higher state (upper level of a stairwell) and was no longer needed.

FINAL STAIR / FINAL STEP --- literal. I may be approaching a final phase of some situation, but I am now, essentially, the leader with aspects of self joining me (the women reaching the landing with me yet not seen) to create a stronger whole.

TRICK STAIR --- literal. A tricky step to navigate in order to reach a goal or opportunity.

FEAR --- literal. Fear immobilizes me or someone, preventing attainment of a higher evolution or state of circumstance.

WOMAN AFRAID TO TAKE THAT FINAL STEP --- could be me or someone that needs assistance. May be a comment on a final step needed to accomplish or help another person accomplish.

PINK AND RED SPECKLES --- represents love and energy, perhaps, but not sure what the color of the door represents.

DOOR --- point of transition and/or opportunity. CLOSED/LOCKED: not accessible or available. Not open to you. OPEN: available now. If you enter, you accept some change in circumstance or in your life. TRYING OR PREPARING TO OPEN: getting to a point where I am ready for some opportunity or change that can be physical or spiritual. FAILURE TO OPEN: missed opportunity. Not ready. Note how difficult it is to reach the door: That will be a comment on your struggle to attain some goal. Did your open the door? If not, you are at the door of some opportunity.

ANCIENT DOOR old ways or skills. Ancient opportunity or knowledge. Since I was familiar with the step and door, may be that I'm being shown something I've previously experienced, perhaps in a previous life.

LEFT SIDE --- the past, but can be that which is brewing but has not entered my sphere of awareness. Something that is waiting in the wings. Also, that which has not come to pass or has not been utilized.

RIGHT SIDE --- the future. FAR RIGHT: That which is possible but not yet available.

FORWARD --- moving forward--what one is doing, should do, or will soon do. In motion. Objects and action that are before you may denote the near future. How soon something will occur depends on how far away something is from your current position.

BEHIND --- a supportive role. "We have your back," "I'm behind you."

IN FRONT --- the present time or the very near future. Also, taking a leadership position.

MAIN DREAM MESSAGE(S)

I will encounter a person who will be a guide or mentor and will be able to lead me to a point of financial improvement which in turn will provide an opportunity for me to incorporate talents/abilities (aspects of self--the women) that could lead me to a position of even greater opportunity or level of growth. This final opportunity could be spiritually-related.

LAST UPDATED: October 17, 2011

THREE BOOKS

2011-10-17T00:08:00.002-04:00

DREAM

CONTENT: CAVE / CAVERN, MEDIA

SUMMARY: Books given to me; strange man stares at me.

April 1987
Time Unknown
RF: 8

THEME: Important books for me to read.

DREAM LOCATION & SETTING

Unknown location that is made of gray slabs and has a cold appearance.

ACCOUNT

Segment 1

PARTICIPATING. Had a dream where I was in a gray, cold-looking place[1]. It was visually blurry, but I saw 3 or 4 individuals. Human, I assume. I didn't see their faces clearly, but the skin was white on two of them. They placed three books on a gray[2] slab or other surface, then they told me some things. Two books were of same thickness and possibly more important than the third, thinner book.

Immediately after the books were shown to me the scene changed.

Segment 2

OBSERVING. I'm watching a scene of a plain white background of a room or open space. A white skinned man walks from left to right into view, wearing a long black top[3] white pants and black(?) Chinese flats. He's facing the dream screen, looking straight at me as if he can see me. I get the feeling he knows the meaning of the first part of the dream, and his staring at me fills me with apprehension. Though he is not fully menacing, he reminds me of a physical devil. His eyes are piercing and eyebrows noticeably arched which takes me aback. His smile is sort of menacing and challenging.

FINAL COMMENT

I wonder if he may have been my spiritual guide. Maybe he is a reflection of my inner soul. My ears perk at that thought and I grow warm slightly on my right side. Maybe he is an adept; a master teacher.

POST COMMENT (2)

Saturday, December 7, 1991

Two years ago I speculated further that perhaps it was an evil spirit like satan or a demon.

Sunday, July 23, 2000
8:49 PM

Just reading through this account and am still speculating just who the person was or represented. Having acquired certain knowledge since 1991 I am led to surmise that the man may have been a spiritual guide disapproving of my lack of spiritual development. I wonder if I had had that dream in year 2000, would I still have interpreted his expression as one of hostility or, instead, one of sternness and reproach.

NOTES

[1] October 16, 2011: remembered as being a cavern- or cave-like area

[2] October 16, 2011: Originally written: ". . . on a steel gray[1] slab. But does 'steel' refer to the color "steel gray" or to the metal "steel"? Knowing me, I meant the shade "steel gray".

[3] October 16, 2011: similar to what a Jew, Muslim or Chinese person would wear over pants

INTERPRETATION

THREE: Holy trinity. Mind, body, spirit.

BOOKS: knowledge

THREE BOOKS: three types or levels of knowledge

TWO MORE IMPORTANT THEN THE THIRD (Possibly): two types or levels of knowledge more important then the others. But which two?

CAVERN/CAVE: the subconscious mind. A spiritual place in the astral realm.

GRAY: gray matter in the mind. That which is in need of illumination. Gray area.

UNKNOWN PEOPLE: aspects of self. Teachers and/or Guides in the astral plane. ETs?

UNKNOWN MAN: aspect of self. One's dark or ignored side. Spiritual Guide or Teacher. Negative spirit in human form? A Hindi spiritual teacher?

ASIAN GARB: Asian knowledge and teachings. Hindism or Buddism?

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DREAM ANALYSIS

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CONTENT: CAVE / CAVERN, MEDIA

SUMMARY (DETAILED)

I'm in a cold place and cannot see clearly. I am given three books, the last more important than the others. In the next segment a man dressed in religious-looking attire stares at me menacingly, leading me to wonder if he is evil or negative.

DATE: April 1987
TIME: Unknown
RF: 8
AGE: 24.10 yrs

SKETCHES: 0

CROSS REFERENCE #: TH625922 / B62592
Content:
Summary:

SIBLINGS:
Content:
Summary:

THEME: Important books for me to read

HIGHLY RECURRENT: No
>> HOW MANY AT LAST COUNT?: 1

SYMBOLS

Three books, cold appearance, steel gray slabs, 3-4 people, man in religious-type garb, piercing eyes, arched eyebrows, blurry vision

PREVAILING SYMBOL(S): Books

REALNESS FACTOR (10 being highest): 8

MOOD DURING EVENT: Segment 2: Apprehension

MOOD IMMEDIATELY UPON AWAKENING
Curiousity—what does it all mean?

THOUGHTS IMMEDIATELY UPON AWAKENING
1] Man is evil—a physical devil
2] It felt so real (both segments)

WAKING SITUATION DREAM MAY BE POINTING TO
My current search for spiritual and religious understanding.

DIRECTIONS: Left to right (man)

LOCATION: Appears to be an underground cave or cavern

VISION CLEAR/BLURRY: Blurry

BRIGHT / DIM / ADEQUATE LIGHTING
Segment 1: Dim
Segment 2: Bright

PREVAILING COLORS
Segment 1: Gray surroundings
Segment 2: White background, black & white clothes

ATTIRE

Segment 2: Man wore religious-type garb similar to Muslims & Chinese.

ATMOSPHERE
Segment 1: Appearance is cold and drab
Segment 2: Penetrating presence

PHYSICAL SENSATIONS: None

EMOTIONS: Segment 2: Apprehension

PARTICIPATING: Segment 1
OBSERVING: Segment 2

PARALYSIS?: No

DID DREAM/EVENT OCCUR?: No

ANALYSIS LAST UPDATED: October 16, 2011

FALLING CLOUDS

2011-10-14T22:29:00.007-04:00

DREAM

CONTENT: TRANSFORMATION, CLOUDS, END OF WORLD

SUMMARY

My mother transforms into a woman who wants me to jump from the window.

Thursday, April 16, 1987 (Appx.)
Time Unknown
RF: 9.9

PRELIMINARY EVENTS

I was sleeping on the pullout bed of my couch which is in front of my livingroom window.

THEME: End of the world

DREAM LOCATION & SETTING
[1] Bathroom of childhood apartment.

[2] Later at current apartment on fifth floor.

[3] It is broad daylight, sun is shining brightly, sky is blue with some clouds.

ACCOUNT

Segment 1

In this dream, my mother—sensed, not seen—my brother B___ & my maternal grandmother are in the back of my childhood apartment, talking. [* NOTE: This segment may be missing material].

Segment 2

My mother's presence is in the apt. but I don't remember actually seeing her. We are in the livingroom of my current apartment. I'm standing I'm standing in front of the open window of the left, large double, and a woman who is supposed to be my mother is standing to the right side or hovering just outside it. I think she is inside. She transforms into a short, white, woman about four feet tall with a medium build. There's a serious expression on her face as she tells me, "It is time to go." I understand that the world is about to end, but I reply, "No, I'm not ready to go yet. I haven't learned enough, and I've just begun to study the bible." I have the impression that if I jump or drop from the window I will be able to fly. I look up at the sky and the clouds start to fall. I get an oppressive, heart-failing feeling of doom and wake up, heart pounding.

FINAL COMMENT

Sun was shining exactly as it had been in the dream when I awoke.

INTERPRETATION

Friday, October 14, 2011

In retrospect I am still aware of how accurately this dream depicted my dedication to trying to figure out what the bible, mainly Genesis and the Old Testament, was really depicting, and about reincarnation and related things. By then I would have experienced at least a handful of strange events, a strange visitation during the night had occurred a year or so before and a second one was due to follow if it had not already. I don't know how much I knew about UFOs at that time, but the UFO-Alien dreams had not yet begun--would not for another 22 months.

I was quite adamant that I had more to learn, that I had only started studying. This dream like so many others I was to have, had a realistic undertone that makes it difficult for me to say "It was just a dream rehashing the events of the day". But it is very likely a comment on my current state of mind, minus the "end of the world" theme which was not a mindset at the time, yet it would not be the only time I dreamed that the world was coming to an end: There would be the black and white atomic bomb dream and the American race riot dream and the UFO invasion dreams.

I suppose this dream is a veiled memory of an abduction from my apartment, because it's possible to interpret the "falling" of the clouds is actually my body or spirit rising up towards the sky. So in a sense segment 2 may have been entirely astral in nature.

It is possible that the entire dream is what some people refer to as a screen memory, which might hint that I had been abducted and this is what was used to cover it up OR it could be how my subconscious mind leaked the abduction to me, perhaps hoping I'd get the message.

The transformation of my mother into another person could be part of the whole abduction screen memory process. Perhaps neither of people were my mother, maybe someone used her image as to not frighten me. I don't know what was going on. I may never truly know.

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DREAM ANALYSIS

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DATE: Tuesday, April 16, 1987
TIME: AM PM
RF: 9.9
AGE: 24.10 yrs

SKETCHES: 0

SIBLINGS:
Content:
Summary:

CROSS REFERENCE #:
Content:
Summary:

THEME: World is coming to an end; Time to leave

SYMBOLS: Clouds, transformation, family, world ending

PREVAILING SYMBOL(S): Clouds, transformation

THOUGHTS IMMEDIATELY UPON AWAKENING:

The cloudy sky view outside the window was the same as in dream.

SENSATIONS DURING EVENT:

Fear—an acceleration of heart rate (pounding) as the clouds began to fall from sky.

THOUGHTS DURING EVENT:

That I would be able to fly if I jumped from the window.

REALNESS FACTOR (10 being highest): 9
>> WHAT MADE IT SEEM REAL:

>> The fear I felt as the clouds began to fall.

OTHER WORLDLY FEELING FACTOR (10 being highest): 0

>> DO YOU FEEL YOU ENTERED ANOTHER REALM: No

POSITION OF FURNITURE SAME AS DREAM?: Yes

WEATHER CONDITIONS SAME AS DREAM?:

Sky view outside the window was same as in dream: upon awakening the sun was shining brightly and there were clouds in the sky.

WAKING STATE SITUATION DREAM MAY BE POINTING TO:

Not sure. The explanation I gave the lady was true to waking life. I really was reading the bible and studying things of a spiritual nature.

DIRECTIONS: Family: Left to Right

PRESENT APT: Yes.
>> DEPICTED ACCURATELY: Nearly so.
>> IF NOT, HOW DID IT DEVIATE:
>> The bathroom: Ended up being that of my childhood apt.

BLENDING OF TWO OR MORE LOCATIONS

Yes: Present apt. (living room and hall) and childhood apt. (bathroom)

DREAM ACTION CLEARLY SEEN: Yes

TIME OF DAY: Daytime / Morning

TIME OF DAY (WAKING STATE):
Daytime / Morning. Identical appearance to dream.

LIGHTING: Natural daylight in room

DREAM COLORS: Vivid colors

ATTIRE:

Football player henchmen: football uniforms [* Need original account to confirm if they were in this dream. If so, correct the blog account.]

VEHICLE: None

WEATHER

Broad daylight and shining sun at beginning then clouds.

ATMOSPHERE

One of termination—of end time. It was time for me to leave Earth.

PHYSICAL SENSATIONS

Feeling of doom; sensation of fast movement of something falling down toward me. [NOTE: this could be a misinterpretation: I could be rising rather than the clouds coming down to me]

EMOTIONS: Fear

PARTICIPATING?: Yes
OBSERVING?: No

FLYING?:

Possibly. The impression was that if I jumped I would be able to fly.

PHRASE USED 1: "It is time to go."

PHRASE USED BY WHOM:
Mother who transformed into unknown woman.

PHRASE USED 2:

"No, I'm not ready to go yet. I haven't learned enough, and I've just begun to study the bible."

PHRASE USED BY WHOM: Me. (Response)

WHAT IS GOING ON IN LIFE AT TIME OF DREAM?: Spiritual studying.

DID DREAM EVENT OCCUR?: No

GOD'S HAND FORMS CLOUDS

2011-10-11T22:27:00.015-04:00

DREAM

CONTENT: GHOST, HAUNTED, DEATH, PRECOGNITIVE

SUMMARY: Invisible hand of God creates lamb-shaped clouds.

January or February 1989
TIME: Undefined
RF 7

LOCATION AND SETTING

Nighttime; in the air of the apartment complex where I live.

ACCOUNT

It's nighttime and there are beautiful, bright white clouds in the sky. An invisible hand that is supposed to be God's plucks clouds from the sky and forms them into the shape of lambs. One lamb cloud floats off diagonally rightward toward the building across the street from mine[1]. It enters either the kitchen or bedroom window of the fifth floor apartment opposite my livingroom window.

I hear a voice that seemed to belong to God talking to me and/or the clouds, probably the clouds. It was such a great feeling watching Him form the clouds.

FINAL COMMENT

About 2 to 4 weeks later, the apt. in the dream was vacant and in about two months it was reoccupied but they didn't stay longer than a year.

NOTES

[1] about 15 feet directly across from my two (small) livingroom windows

CR#: August 7, 2001--b
CR SUMMARY:
CR RF: 8

INTERPRETATION

No thoughts at this time.

LAST UPDATED: October 14, 2011

MY FATHER WANTS TO SHOOT ME

2011-10-01T23:18:00.005-04:00

DREAM

CONTENT: BEING SHOT, FATHER

SUMMARY
My father wants to shoot me, but an unknown man does it instead.

Saturday, February 6, 2010
11:19 AM
RF# 9.00

PRELIMINARY EVENTS: I went to bed about 9:30 AM.

ACCOUNT

PARTICIPATING. I dreamed I was in a room [1], and at some point I was told my (waking life) father was going to shoot me. I didn't really believe that he would harm me.

Later, a stocky, tall, white man [2] came into the room and began shooting. I'm not sure who else was in the room, but he came to the back where I was crouched down on the floor. I had my right hand up to shield me as he began firing his gun. I was scared and had no idea who this man was and why he was shooting me. He fired off quite a few shots, (but I don't remember if any of them hit me).

Then he left right back out the door. I woke up.

FINAL COMMENTS

What I find interesting about this dream is that it reflects something I was told in waking life, so time after I had ran away:

I was fifteen and had ran off with this man twice my age. Months later my stepmother told me that when my father was livid about what I'd done. I'm not sure whether he was angry because I was underage, because of who the man was, or maybe because I didn't come to him. Maybe all of the above. According to my sister and fraternal grandmother, my father said he was going to shoot me.

Can you imagine that? I never did get to talk to my father about that incident. At the time I didn't really believe he would shoot me, but I did stay away from his house for a while. Just in case.

NOTES

[1] the room was okay, a little dim, but my viewpoint was a bit blurry.

[2] the gunman had light-colored hair, kind of balding, and I think he was wearing white because I remember seeing a lot of it on him. He was angry and out of control.

FINAL COMMENTS

A very realistic dream. In the dream I was so certain my father wouldn't shoot me.

INTERPRETATION

I'm not sure if this dream is pointing towards a past life event with my father. And if so, was the shooter my father in that lifetime?

GUN: What is the weapon you use to silence self or others?

SHOOTER / ATTACKER: Could be self. Who or what within self do I want to kill? Do I feel under attack? By whom?

BEING SHOT: Something I want to kill within self or around me.

FATHER: Universal: An authority figure. Protection. Personal: Something I can't get close to (because I could not get close to my father despite efforts).

LAST UPDATED: October 14, 2011